Dilemma

Yesterday I had my follow up doctor's appointment in NYC.  I had to struggle a little over the week to make this happen.  I was not feeling well again, but did not want to miss this appointment.  My last appointment was April 17th.  I missed the one in July because of being admitted and I didn't want to miss another one.   Another thing I did not want to do was cancel my flight.  So I did what I needed to do to in order make it through the week and get to this appointment.

Broken

I am falling apart.  I am trying so hard to keep myself together here, but it seems like no matter what I do I can't feel good.  I don't like to complain, but this is getting to be too much.  Not only for me, but for my family too.  I can barely do anything for myself so I constantly have someone doing something.  They are all constantly worried about me and that gets to me too.  I don't like seeing my family upset.  I know it is inevitable  because they all love me and hate seeing me in the condition I am in.