Educational Seminars

Jay and I went to NYC this week for two educational seminars.  They require we attend twelve a year.  Before this we have not attended any due to the timing of these and my appointments not lining up.  It is not easy or cheap traveling to NYC so traveling just for a seminar is too much.  Especially with my health declining.  Jay had to be in NYC for work so I went with him this time in order to go to these seminars.  They do two back to back so two down.  I am happy we made these two because they were very informative.

Don't Give Up

Well last week the place I worked officially shut down.  I am upset and happy about it at the same time.  I am upset because it was perfect for me.  I didn't care for what I was doing, but it was a job that paid money and allowed me to stay at home.  This is important for me because I have gotten too sick to be able to go out to a workplace every day.  I am going to look and see if I can find something small at home to make some money, but I won't be too devastated if I can't.  I am a little happy about it due to the fact that I can spend more time taking care of myself and maybe getting back into some of my little hobbies.  Between taking care of myself and working, I didn't have the energy to do anything else.  I have some moments when something is going on.  For the most part though I am sitting at home doing something health related or laying around relaxing due to lack of energy.  I try and do what I can when I get the chance, but I honestly can't wait until I have the energy to actually do things again.

Holiday

Well these last few weeks have definitely been busy. It seems like we all go crazy for a month getting ready for Christmas and then it is all over in just a few hours.  I guess that is part of the fun.  I was really excited for Black Friday because Jason and I were trying something new and I am always up for a little adventure; but besides that I didn't get into it much.  Two weeks before Christmas we went out and cut down our own tree.  Another thing that was new for us, but it took us until December 23 to get the motivation to decorate it.  This is not normal for me at all because I love this time of year.  All the lights, and the music....(Christmas music on the radio was annoying me, they start way too early)  I know some of the issue was because I just didn't have the energy for a lot of it, but I am not sure if that was the whole problem or not.  It kind of makes me sad.

Enough is Enough

I went back into the hospital on December 2nd.  Again I was coughing a lot, fevers all the time, not sleeping through the night.  I had to go in yet again, but this last hospitalization sucked.  Things were just going wrong left and right.  I am use to hurdles.  I come across them every day and can normally get through them.  When things come at me one after another, and I am not feeling well to begin with…I do eventually break down at times.

Evaluation Complete

Update on what is going on.  A few weeks ago I had an angiogram done.  They needed to take measurements in my heart so they needed to send a catheter up the vein or artery in my groin until it got to my heart.  Because it was an invasive procedure I had to be admitted into the hospital for the day.  My grandma brought me because I was going to be under anesthesia.  I was also told I would not be able to drive for two to three days after the procedure.  We got there around 10:00 and I was put in a room.  I was told I had to wait for the doctor to arrive and I was scheduled to have it done at 2:00.  They gave me an IV and surprisingly took me down around noon. I waited in the recovery room for about an hour for the doctor and then went in.  The procedure itself was not too bad.  They gave me a little bit of a sedative and a local where they put the needle in my groin so I felt minimal pain.  The doctor talked to me the whole time and was great.  He was making jokes with me and told me he was going to bill me for all the educational information he was giving me.  I was asking about everything.  I wanted to know what he was doing and why he was doing it.  I can't really relay much of it back because to be honest a lot of it is a blur to me. I remember a few things he said to me and I remember talking to him, but I don't remember much of the context.  Those drugs can really mess with you.  lol

Get Busy Living or Get Busy Dying

Since I have been off the antibiotics I have been feeling relatively good. The first couple days after I got home I was still getting winded easily.  A couple days ago though I have been noticing an increase in my energy.  I am doing my best to keep myself as active as possible without over doing it.  It feels great to be able to do things.  Today I even had energy to do some cleaning in the second bedroom.  We still have a few boxes that we never unpacked so I decided to tackle some of that while I had the ambition.  lol  Hopefully this lasts for a little while.

The Other Side of This Life

On September 29th I had my orientation with Roswell and then went back into the hospital for IV meds right after.  I was having a very hard time breathing and needing oxygen all day long.  Even with the oxygen on I couldn't walk ten feet without becoming winded. Thankfully I was able to get through the orientation and that went good.  There was about twenty of us and we all sat through a slide show and learned what was expected of us as volunteers.  We were all given a health assessment that we had to fill out.  One of the things on the list was getting two PPD's.  I had one done earlier in September so all I had to do was get one more and have my doctor fill out the form.